I’m not a single person anymore

Therefore, I’ve got to stop thinking and acting single-mindedly. I’m in a whole relationship now. Can you believe it? I can’t. 🤣 Yeh, I just laughed at myself. 🤪😜

It’s so surreal, but why does it have to be? Isn’t this supposed to be a normal feeling for the average person? Instead, it’ll be me disassociating and asking myself “why am I acting like this or that, or why aren’t I doing this or that to make so-and-so happier?”

I’ve even preached when I was married that relationships take two people, not just one person, to make it work. I want to avoid being that person not helping make it work.

Likewise, I resented my husband for his unrequited actions. I want to avoid being resented for mine. The heat 🔥 is on. 🥵

At the end of the day…

I’m going to be mentally refucked no matter what new method of thinking I try.

A man’s negative reactions and behaviors towards me are what I’ve come to expect. “Some women just have it, some women don’t. I never have.”

A beautiful woman will tell a plain average woman to simply change the way she thinks about herself, or believe the opposite of what she really is, i.e., “I’m all that and a bag of chips” and men will start seeing her as “all that and a bag of chips,” aka attracted to her.
So, the average plain woman runs to put on a little eyeliner, mascara, lipstick, and blush. She changes the way she dresses and gives this “new thinking” a try, but it doesn’t work. At least not the way those other prettier women said that it would. Nothing changes.
Bob, for example, still, doesn’t give her a second glance.